Hmmmmm!

Well, the year is proving challenging.... what year isn't.  All part of lifes rich cycle or tapestry I guess.  A few more grey hairs to cover with dye and a few more lines to fill with moisturiser and yes, boobs that perhaps fall a millimetre lower than last year....... enough on the boob front with the scary mental images!!!

Strength and endurance, courage and fear.  4 powerful emotions that guide and help us, hinder us and bind us.  On their own they can be dealt with but when they hit you all at once your world goes random...but today has been a good day and whilst financial panics and troubles abound, the essay writing is improving.....awaiting (nervously and with fear) the results from essays handed in last year...... gulp.

This year will be about finding that strength and endurance and the courage to overcome fear - of which there is much but I say this from a viewpoint of knowing that I have overcome fear before, that it is a productive force, that it can motivate and provoke positive outcomes.  However, for one small moment I'd like some slack, to have my ERNIE bonds come up with enough money to make things OK for me and for my Mum and for there to be enough so the worry is taken out of everyday things such as shopping and fuel....I guess there is comfort here too as I am so very fortunate to be educated, live in a country that has clean running water readily available in the kitchen tap, that I have four walls and a roof around me, that I can life peacefully and without war.  We so often forget these things and fight constantly with trying to live up to the expectations of the media and our greed.

Now I've learnt the lesson, can I have my Porsche please?????

May you all find the strength you need to help you when you fear it most, the love to support you when you feel you can't go on and the endurance and courage to see it all through.

x x x