Well, the year is proving challenging.... what year isn't. All part of lifes rich cycle or tapestry I guess. A few more grey hairs to cover with dye and a few more lines to fill with moisturiser and yes, boobs that perhaps fall a millimetre lower than last year....... enough on the boob front with the scary mental images!!!
Strength and endurance, courage and fear. 4 powerful emotions that guide and help us, hinder us and bind us. On their own they can be dealt with but when they hit you all at once your world goes random...but today has been a good day and whilst financial panics and troubles abound, the essay writing is improving.....awaiting (nervously and with fear) the results from essays handed in last year...... gulp.
This year will be about finding that strength and endurance and the courage to overcome fear - of which there is much but I say this from a viewpoint of knowing that I have overcome fear before, that it is a productive force, that it can motivate and provoke positive outcomes. However, for one small moment I'd like some slack, to have my ERNIE bonds come up with enough money to make things OK for me and for my Mum and for there to be enough so the worry is taken out of everyday things such as shopping and fuel....I guess there is comfort here too as I am so very fortunate to be educated, live in a country that has clean running water readily available in the kitchen tap, that I have four walls and a roof around me, that I can life peacefully and without war. We so often forget these things and fight constantly with trying to live up to the expectations of the media and our greed.
Now I've learnt the lesson, can I have my Porsche please?????
May you all find the strength you need to help you when you fear it most, the love to support you when you feel you can't go on and the endurance and courage to see it all through.
x x x
Wednesday, 26 January 2011
Sunday, 9 January 2011
Lady Penelope PLC
Gorgeous Girl
Darling girl
Little Munch-kin
Sweetie-pie
Cuddle Cat
Pretty Little Girl
All names given to our darling cat, Lady Penelope PLC (Purrs Loudly and Constantly).
September 2005 - January 2011
RIP darling girl.
x x x
Darling girl
Little Munch-kin
Sweetie-pie
Cuddle Cat
Pretty Little Girl
All names given to our darling cat, Lady Penelope PLC (Purrs Loudly and Constantly).
September 2005 - January 2011
RIP darling girl.
x x x
Thursday, 6 January 2011
The New Year....hmm
Whilst Christmas Day and Boxing Day were wonderful - listening to old 78's of Glen Millar and Joe Loss and dancing with my Mum, things went rapidly down hill after that.
John's birthday (27th) was spent with him wiped out in bed following a collapse in the morning. So on the first working day back I mad him a Dr's appointment and went with him - he duly had a collapse whilst in the Dr's surgery. The rest of the day was spent at East Surrey Hospital - thrilling and worrying at the same time. In short he has a heart condition - we don't know what it is exactly and neither, it seems, do the Dr's so we await all sorts of tests and trips to consultants etc. In the meantime he is exhausted.
The New Year came in with a whimper as our gorgeous lovely little cat (Lady Penelope PLC - Purrs Loudly and Constantly or Pretty Little Cat) is ill again. She is in desperate need of an operation to remove lung lobes which are diseased...... the cost would be around 4 to 5 thousand pounds. Insurance has already paid for her treatment to date (now running at nearly 5 thousand) but I just simply don't have any money. She will come home and will be on anti-biotics for a while, and we are of course hopeful that this will give her some good quality of life, but if the problems return we will need to consider all the options again - we can only keep our fingers crossed and pray that she will survive again on more anti-biotics. She is only 5 and a bit and is such a plucky little thing.....I pray for guidance and support and of course and foremost for her.
It is odd how the year has started, but these shocks have made me realise my need for support beyond the human - in what form this is I am still undecided, but faith and trust is obviously going to be the order of 2011 and whatever it brings.
May you all find the courage to deal with the problems that the year brings and joy in the love you have for friends, family and pets and in simply being here on this wonderful planet.
Peace and love
Aggie x x x
John's birthday (27th) was spent with him wiped out in bed following a collapse in the morning. So on the first working day back I mad him a Dr's appointment and went with him - he duly had a collapse whilst in the Dr's surgery. The rest of the day was spent at East Surrey Hospital - thrilling and worrying at the same time. In short he has a heart condition - we don't know what it is exactly and neither, it seems, do the Dr's so we await all sorts of tests and trips to consultants etc. In the meantime he is exhausted.
The New Year came in with a whimper as our gorgeous lovely little cat (Lady Penelope PLC - Purrs Loudly and Constantly or Pretty Little Cat) is ill again. She is in desperate need of an operation to remove lung lobes which are diseased...... the cost would be around 4 to 5 thousand pounds. Insurance has already paid for her treatment to date (now running at nearly 5 thousand) but I just simply don't have any money. She will come home and will be on anti-biotics for a while, and we are of course hopeful that this will give her some good quality of life, but if the problems return we will need to consider all the options again - we can only keep our fingers crossed and pray that she will survive again on more anti-biotics. She is only 5 and a bit and is such a plucky little thing.....I pray for guidance and support and of course and foremost for her.
It is odd how the year has started, but these shocks have made me realise my need for support beyond the human - in what form this is I am still undecided, but faith and trust is obviously going to be the order of 2011 and whatever it brings.
May you all find the courage to deal with the problems that the year brings and joy in the love you have for friends, family and pets and in simply being here on this wonderful planet.
Peace and love
Aggie x x x
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